When I decided to place my trust and faith in Christ, I did so with a very real dread that I was going to become completely miserable. I had already accepted that Jesus was who he claimed to be, that all the facts lined up, and that I desperatly needed a savior to save me from the deplorable situation I found myself in and yet my salvation was far from a joyous celebration but mroe like a solumn funeral.
Now I know many people would say “it was a funeral” according to Romans 6:4, but the death I dreaded went far beyond the death of the “old man”, it punctured the very essence of who I was and still am.
You see, I love intellectual inquiry. I like perusing wisdom, questioning and exploring and generally learning as much as I can about as many things as I can.
However the primary message I kept getting from most of the Church was a bunch of tasteless pre-chewedÂ morselsÂ which ultimatly lead to becoming a brain-dead mindless adherent of an essentially blind faith riddled with an endless string of dos and donts (which seemed more numerous than the dos).
I fought long and hard against this notion of blind faith and recently came to grips with the completely unbiblical nature found in most Churches (and indeed, among most Christians) that intellectual inquiry into the Christian faith is a hinderance at worst and an academic niche at best. Jesus himself spoke mostly with questions designed to stimulate the minds of those listening. Most of the apostles argued and debated. God Himself even told us in Deuteronomy 8:3 that “man shall not live on bread alone but by every word that proceeds from the mouth of the Lord”.
So if you are starving or have come to the conclusion that the depth of learning about Christ ended with the Cross, I implore you to dig a little deeper. Perhaps you’ve bought into the lie that biblical faith can be manufactured by our own feelings rather than mined with great labor through diligent study and reflection.
Learning is a life-long endeavor and when you come to the realization that the same joy of studying your favorite subject such as mathematics, biology, or chemistry can also be applied to the infinite Creator, you’ll understand why Psalms 34:8 tells us to “taste and see that the Lord is good”.
One of the most essential questions for any person, and indeed especially for any disciple of Christ is; What are you chewing on? Does it have any substance past your own personal feelings or is there true meat there that can also serve to nourish others?
Perhaps the old adage is true; You are what you eat.