(7/25/2005 @ 5:38 AM)
I figured yall might want an update; and as the next few days are going to be extremely busy, I might as well sit down and let you know what is happening and how God has worked since I last wrote.
It’s hard to believe but things went from bad to worse. While the bid on the house in Goshen hasn’t exactly fallen through; it might as well have. Some notes on it are:
1. The owner is in Korea
2. The owner’s ex-wife is on the title of the house, they’ve been divorced for 9 years and he has no idea where she is.
3. A private investigator was hired to track her down, the last we’ve heard is that she has had 17 known addresses in the past 9 years.
4. Currently they are investigating a last known address of 2 months ago.
We also were told we could rent a house on a month-to-month basis from someone. This fell though last Thursday (11 days until we have to move).
Currently we are left with few options and precious little time.
We read that our home is in heaven and that we are merely passing through. Never is this more real to us than now. We feel a lot like Abram when God told him “Get you out of your country, and from your kindred, and from your father’s house, unto a land that I will show you:”1. We haven’t been shown where, but God clearly wants us to “pack up and go”. We can only trust that He has a plan and a purpose. Hopefully we won’t turn into the nation of Israel and wander in the wilderness for 40 years.
Words cannot express the anguish at not being able to do anything at all about the situation. I feel like Job when he said “snares are round about you, and sudden fear troubles you;”2. But God keeps bringing me back to what he said a few verses later “For then shall you have your delight in the Almighty, and shall lift up your face unto God.”3. Friday (7/22/05) God reminded me of this when I turned on the radio for the first time in a few months (I rarely listen to anything in a car) and the song “God Will Lift Up Your Head ” but Jars of Clay came on. Tears sprang to my eyes as I heard “God will lift up your head” right after I had just confessed to God that I didn’t think I could take any more.
It is amazing how God provides the strength to keep on, even in the face of seemingly insurmountable obstacles. We shouldn’t be surprised though, because Paul writes “I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.”4. We tend to take this verse to mean that God will allow us or even accompany us in doing what we want to do. What we fail to realize is that God strengthens and equips us to glorify His name.
I’ve found new reasons to praise God throughout all of this. “Behold, we count them happy who endure. You have heard of the patience of Job, and have seen the end of the Lord; that the Lord is very compassionate, and of tender mercy.”5. God has kept Beth and I joyful; albeit it weary, throughout all of this. We can’t say that we are happy, but God has allowed us to laugh at the events as they transpire. A few times we have slowed down and gotten discouraged, but for the most part we haven’t really had time to think about what is going on other than “what’s next?”.
One of the things God grants those who come to know Him is a peace and a joy that are incomprehensible to most. If I ever doubted my relationship with God, these events have shown me otherwise. For how could a person endure these things apart from Christ?